The Beginning

2017

Oct 13th, 2017

I went through an emotionally turbulent 2017.  I had taken care of my father who had a stroke almost 4 years earlier, and he finally agreed to go to a nursing home after 5 falls in 1 weekend.  I have a young teenage daughter, that when this started with her grandfather she was 9 years old,  she just now turned 14 years old this past June 2018. I felt like I had missed out on so much with her.  Around the time he moved to the nursing home, (Aug 2017) a good friend of mine came in my office.  She took a look at me and said, "Marcia, you don't look so good, why don't you do something for yourself for a change?"  It dawned on me that I didn't know what I even could or wanted to do for just me... We talked and she said that a friend of hers was putting on a art show in our little town of Festus in October and that I should make a few things to show or maybe even sell. I had a little bit of art classes from the junior college under my belt from over 23 years earlier and my Mom had owned a flower shop for almost 40 years, so I have been around at least a creative vibe most of my life and I thought why not. I can do something.  So I went to our local Wal-Mart and purchased a 2' x 3' canvas and a bunch of so called artist acrylic paint, watched a couple of painting shows on Youtube and went to town...  I could not stop once I started, it was amazing.  I think I worked on the canvas non stop, every free moment I had until the art show in October. I realized it was actually therapy for my nerves more than anything and I absolutely loved every second of it.  When I started this project I had noticed I had been shaking inside and it had begun to show up externally also.  I let it all hang out. I painted a pissed off destroyer female goddess Kali Ma, and a serene creator version of Sophia goddess. Both archetypes of my emotional state of where I was and where I wanted to go.  The picture shown here, is of the original painting as it hangs in Meraki Tattoo and Piercing Shop on Bailey Rd. in Crystal City Missouri.  The owners purchased it from me the day I showed it on the street in October 2017.  This was the beginning of my reawakened self from a time when I still knew who I was and who and what I wanted to be...  No it isn't great art, but it is art and a start to my healing process.

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Marcia Hahn